HOMESICK!!! 6 month i never said that.. i often feel this. but today, i feel homesick.
miss my mom, my dad, my sist, my best friend.. i miss high school, every time that i spen with my friends before i went here.
this time i feel different because i feel this feeling alone, no one beside me tonight. no. it's Saturday night and i m sitting alone, missing my family and friends. but i try to be strong.
i m here for my future. i m here for my self. if my self happy they will feel the same way.
this is my first homesick for 2009. i know i will have this feeling. cant wait for july. it's still long. but i hope it come fast. because i will meet them all.
xoxo
elephant'smind
- elephant'stoughts
- a Libra's minds reflection with a touch of a half of the elephant dreams
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
the tears just drop without i know the reason.
my tears just drop. i don't know why..
maybe i miss my home , or my friends..
yes it is. but i miss someone else.
but i make a decision to leave.
but i miss him.
i m trying to be strong.
trying to avoid what i feel,
trying to forget.
and maybe i need time
to heal.
to let him go.
but tonight the tears just drop but i realized, it has a reason.
maybe i miss my home , or my friends..
yes it is. but i miss someone else.
but i make a decision to leave.
but i miss him.
i m trying to be strong.
trying to avoid what i feel,
trying to forget.
and maybe i need time
to heal.
to let him go.
but tonight the tears just drop but i realized, it has a reason.
irresistable ( the corrs).
You're irresistible
You're mine
Don't want you for the weekend
Don't want you for a day
Don't need a love divided
Don't wanna feel this way
See I want you to need me (the way I need you)
Just like I need you (the way I see you)
And I want you to see me
Like no-one before
You're irresistible,natural, physical
It's indefinable, magical, illogical
So make-you-mine able
You're mine
So can't you see I'm tortured
Oh, can't you hear my pain
If you just let me show you
I'll be your summer rain
Then you'll feel that you want me (the way I'm feeling)
Just like I want you (the way I want you)
And you know nothing's better
It's like nothing before
Now you feel what I'm feeling (don't you feel what I'm feeling)
Don't you know that it's more (it can take you places)
It can take you places
Like never before
You're mine
Don't want you for the weekend
Don't want you for a day
Don't need a love divided
Don't wanna feel this way
See I want you to need me (the way I need you)
Just like I need you (the way I see you)
And I want you to see me
Like no-one before
You're irresistible,natural, physical
It's indefinable, magical, illogical
So make-you-mine able
You're mine
So can't you see I'm tortured
Oh, can't you hear my pain
If you just let me show you
I'll be your summer rain
Then you'll feel that you want me (the way I'm feeling)
Just like I want you (the way I want you)
And you know nothing's better
It's like nothing before
Now you feel what I'm feeling (don't you feel what I'm feeling)
Don't you know that it's more (it can take you places)
It can take you places
Like never before
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
now i m leaving and move on.
now i m leaving again. it is for the last time.
i give you the second chance, i m waiting.
if you came again to offer me something don't you wish i will come back to you.
because it is the second time you leave me like this, yeah and it take same time. just one month and you leave.
i tried to wait you. but you never showed,you never ring on me, nudge me or even buzz me.
i m tired dear. now i m leaving because i find a better man.
i make a wrong decision to back to you.
i keep our commitment. to stick together but..
you just gone without a letter.
so i just can say good bye and it for the last time.
if you come again, sorry i move already,
i found the great one. and i hope he's not like you,
for the last time i said clearly,
i m leaving and it is for the last time.
i m gonna miss you. but it's your last chance.
.xoxo.
i give you the second chance, i m waiting.
if you came again to offer me something don't you wish i will come back to you.
because it is the second time you leave me like this, yeah and it take same time. just one month and you leave.
i tried to wait you. but you never showed,you never ring on me, nudge me or even buzz me.
i m tired dear. now i m leaving because i find a better man.
i make a wrong decision to back to you.
i keep our commitment. to stick together but..
you just gone without a letter.
so i just can say good bye and it for the last time.
if you come again, sorry i move already,
i found the great one. and i hope he's not like you,
for the last time i said clearly,
i m leaving and it is for the last time.
i m gonna miss you. but it's your last chance.
.xoxo.
love.love.love. it is a fun thing.
if we want feel love. don't make this as a complicated things.
this things should be fun. make us happy, passionate.4
but if it change into a complicated ones, is it love??
can we call it love??
because when you love someone,
happiness will around you!!
love bring happiness not a disaster.
but sometime disaster can make everything have colour.
so is it a fun things??
no one can answer it.
this things should be fun. make us happy, passionate.4
but if it change into a complicated ones, is it love??
can we call it love??
because when you love someone,
happiness will around you!!
love bring happiness not a disaster.
but sometime disaster can make everything have colour.
so is it a fun things??
no one can answer it.
girl friendship is fake?? is it true??
in this time i will tell about a silly story that always happen in a girl friendship.
now i have a big question. is it a girl friendship is fake??
why i have a question like that. although i have a lot of girl friends. but why we always heard about girls fight?? it's a silly thing that always happen, am i right??
like me and my 5 best friend.. we still have a little fight. even though it is just because unimportant things. but for me and my 5 best friend it's just a test and make us more stronger.
but this situation , it is very silly. haha. like for high school people they have a gang ( i had one when i in high school). the geek one and the popular one. why must have that?? we're all same. we're just a girl who try to know our identity. the different just WHO IS OUR FRIENDS!!! but its ok when we're in high school..
but if now??
college?? university??
is it ok??
grow up then.. we said we already mature.. what mature if we still doing that kind of things??
we should see everything from other side, we should know what friends are. not just because we re in different life style we can't be friend. hahhahaha
frienship is when we can understand about our close person, the good side and the bad side.
it is easy to say or write. but it is!!
so the answer of my question is this is depends on how we know our friend. how we can understand them. and we cam hanging around each other without any gap. some people did that a fake relatonship. but this thing will be a question that always people ask for a long time.
no one can answer exactlly. it will back to the person .
xoxo.
now i have a big question. is it a girl friendship is fake??
why i have a question like that. although i have a lot of girl friends. but why we always heard about girls fight?? it's a silly thing that always happen, am i right??
like me and my 5 best friend.. we still have a little fight. even though it is just because unimportant things. but for me and my 5 best friend it's just a test and make us more stronger.
but this situation , it is very silly. haha. like for high school people they have a gang ( i had one when i in high school). the geek one and the popular one. why must have that?? we're all same. we're just a girl who try to know our identity. the different just WHO IS OUR FRIENDS!!! but its ok when we're in high school..
but if now??
college?? university??
is it ok??
grow up then.. we said we already mature.. what mature if we still doing that kind of things??
we should see everything from other side, we should know what friends are. not just because we re in different life style we can't be friend. hahhahaha
frienship is when we can understand about our close person, the good side and the bad side.
it is easy to say or write. but it is!!
so the answer of my question is this is depends on how we know our friend. how we can understand them. and we cam hanging around each other without any gap. some people did that a fake relatonship. but this thing will be a question that always people ask for a long time.
no one can answer exactlly. it will back to the person .
xoxo.
so what ?!! " I'M A LIBRA"
last night i heard about a little gossip, that i heard from my friends. my ex told to someone that i just like a casual relationship.. OK.. first thought that come out in my mind is "what the hell".. spontaneous thought just appear..
but after i told this to my friend, and she explain about what i did after i broke up with my last ex bf, suddenly i realize, i did 4 casual relationship. oh man, i didn't realized that. it is like a bomb in my head.. and all people feel weird about what I've been doing for 6 month.
and i talk to my best friend about this. and both of us is a Libra. i shared all with her, and we made something, like a theory.
we're Libra always making:
1) something that every body thinks it unusual
2) we never listen every body said.
3) we have own judgment and no one accept our self can understand
4) we like thinks a lot, it is for balancing.
5) some times we made decision when we already doing the things.
like all my friends keep asking everything that i did, it's seem so wrong.
but for me.. it's a process for making the right things.
like the reason why i doing this casual relationship is because i don't want to make a commitment for now, but i still need love.
then the very important thing is if we have a commit relationship, we have to ready to loose it when everything haven't fit in us right. i don't want to feel that again for now because I'm not ready yet. so i try to use this casual relationship for now.
for this just me can understand this. because no one can. accept my friend who is Libra too.
when a Libra doing something unusual we have a good reason for that. we did this for balancing everything we've been doing.
. like our symbol a scale!
xoxo
but after i told this to my friend, and she explain about what i did after i broke up with my last ex bf, suddenly i realize, i did 4 casual relationship. oh man, i didn't realized that. it is like a bomb in my head.. and all people feel weird about what I've been doing for 6 month.
and i talk to my best friend about this. and both of us is a Libra. i shared all with her, and we made something, like a theory.
we're Libra always making:
1) something that every body thinks it unusual
2) we never listen every body said.
3) we have own judgment and no one accept our self can understand
4) we like thinks a lot, it is for balancing.
5) some times we made decision when we already doing the things.
like all my friends keep asking everything that i did, it's seem so wrong.
but for me.. it's a process for making the right things.
like the reason why i doing this casual relationship is because i don't want to make a commitment for now, but i still need love.
then the very important thing is if we have a commit relationship, we have to ready to loose it when everything haven't fit in us right. i don't want to feel that again for now because I'm not ready yet. so i try to use this casual relationship for now.
for this just me can understand this. because no one can. accept my friend who is Libra too.
when a Libra doing something unusual we have a good reason for that. we did this for balancing everything we've been doing.
. like our symbol a scale!xoxo
Monday, January 26, 2009
FLIRTING is a DISASTER
tonight will write one of my friend story, and it might happen to me ( i hope not. ) . she and one of my friend suddenly getting closer, like have something going on, for the first time it is just a joke. but it's change to something more special, she have a feeling with him. this relationship joke change into something real.
then now. what happen?? it is become a disaster!! because she and him using this spontaneous feeling, the feeling that never exist before.. the feeling that suddenly exist. but, that's love. ya, it is a love. a express love. but don't under estimate this kind of love. it might be works.
last things, i have this kind of things. but i try not to use my feeling. but i don't know it will happen to me or not.
for me i enjoy mine. it is fun until now.
it a flirting become a disaster.
so careful whit joking relationship.
if you can't handle it it will become a disaster.
.xoxo.
then now. what happen?? it is become a disaster!! because she and him using this spontaneous feeling, the feeling that never exist before.. the feeling that suddenly exist. but, that's love. ya, it is a love. a express love. but don't under estimate this kind of love. it might be works.
last things, i have this kind of things. but i try not to use my feeling. but i don't know it will happen to me or not.
for me i enjoy mine. it is fun until now.
it a flirting become a disaster.
so careful whit joking relationship.
if you can't handle it it will become a disaster.
.xoxo.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
MY NEW LULLABY = MY NEW LIFE
i got new lullaby.. it is adhitya sofyan song!!
damn great!!
it s not just my lullaby.. this song keep playing all day..
love it.. starting from adelaide sky, i will transfer to there i hope.
then blue sky collapse.
and i love into you song!!
it is from the unnamed ones.
you should listen to him!!
and the best of the best is MEMILIH MU.
its why i choose to give my heart to him.
and WYL. it s about i can live without him and i will come home for him.
and reality, its like the song name, it is the reality.. how i finished this story, i need go back to the reality.
damn great!!
it s not just my lullaby.. this song keep playing all day..
love it.. starting from adelaide sky, i will transfer to there i hope.
then blue sky collapse.
and i love into you song!!
it is from the unnamed ones.
you should listen to him!!
and the best of the best is MEMILIH MU.
its why i choose to give my heart to him.
and WYL. it s about i can live without him and i will come home for him.
and reality, its like the song name, it is the reality.. how i finished this story, i need go back to the reality.
adelaide sky -adhitya sofyan-
I need to know what's on your mind
These coffee cups are getting cold
Mind the people passing by
They don't know I'll be leaving soon
I'll fly away tomorrow
To far away
I'll admit a cliché
Things won't be the same without you
I'll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I'll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me
I'll let you know what's on my mind
I wish they've made you portable
Then i'll carry you around and round
I bet you'll look good on me
I'll fly away tomorrow
It's been fun
I'll repeat the cliché
Things won't be the same without you
I've been meaning to call you soon
But we're in different times
You might not be home now
Would you take a message
I'll try to stay awake
And fight your presence in my head
when i listen to this song. i imagine i already in Adelaide sitting in the park.. in the evening!!
hahhahaha
i want go to adelaide soon.
These coffee cups are getting cold
Mind the people passing by
They don't know I'll be leaving soon
I'll fly away tomorrow
To far away
I'll admit a cliché
Things won't be the same without you
I'll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I'll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me
I'll let you know what's on my mind
I wish they've made you portable
Then i'll carry you around and round
I bet you'll look good on me
I'll fly away tomorrow
It's been fun
I'll repeat the cliché
Things won't be the same without you
I've been meaning to call you soon
But we're in different times
You might not be home now
Would you take a message
I'll try to stay awake
And fight your presence in my head
when i listen to this song. i imagine i already in Adelaide sitting in the park.. in the evening!!
hahhahaha
i want go to adelaide soon.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
no one cam replace HIM.
actually i have something going on with unnamed guy. actually it his second time come to my life. but some times he just gone. after he's gone, suddenly him came.. it happen so many time. but no one can replace him, he know how to make me laugh, smile , calm, cry. but the things that i don't like he just like to come and go. when ever he like..
i know it s because he's busy working.. but i need your attention dear.
pleas don't make me feel like this..
because no one can replace you .
i totally into you.
i said so. i said so many times.
i m into you.
XOXO
i know it s because he's busy working.. but i need your attention dear.
pleas don't make me feel like this..
because no one can replace you .
i totally into you.
i said so. i said so many times.
i m into you.
XOXO
brother and sister
this is the picture of my favorite person.
i love both of them so much..
they teach me how to be a good sister and good examples for them.
now they growing up..
i see the change in their live
.
they become a great teenager.
yeah.. i m not a good examples for them.
but i know they love mee..
i love you both.
.xoxo.
Monday, January 19, 2009
what a messy room!!!!
last night my auntie come to sleep over just for one night.. and she complain about my messy room..
hahahhaa
ok, i just forgot to make my room more tidy.. like i forgot to put my dirty laundry into the washing machine.. and she take a picture of my room and she send it to my other auntie and to her friend!!
and my mom call her to make sure about my room.
ok starting from now I MUST CLEAN MY ROOM MORE OFTEN.
hahahhaa
ok, i just forgot to make my room more tidy.. like i forgot to put my dirty laundry into the washing machine.. and she take a picture of my room and she send it to my other auntie and to her friend!!
and my mom call her to make sure about my room.
ok starting from now I MUST CLEAN MY ROOM MORE OFTEN.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
in relationship with.. is it important??
is it so important to announced that we're not single anymore?? for me it's just to make fun of it. it is not to important, because if we truly serious with this person, we used our heart not only with a written word like in relationship with..
yaeah. and like today i making fun with it.. and my best friend angry saw that things.. silly him..
i try to explain but he didn't respond it..
for me to mention something in Facebook or friendster it's not to important. because actually we feel that feeling, sometimes we should keep everything secret. like what I've been doing now with unnamed guy.
we tried to make everything secretly until we can know what we feel.. because sometimes if we exposed something it gonna be a burden.
.xoxo.
yaeah. and like today i making fun with it.. and my best friend angry saw that things.. silly him..
i try to explain but he didn't respond it..
for me to mention something in Facebook or friendster it's not to important. because actually we feel that feeling, sometimes we should keep everything secret. like what I've been doing now with unnamed guy.
we tried to make everything secretly until we can know what we feel.. because sometimes if we exposed something it gonna be a burden.
.xoxo.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
JASON MRAZ live in malaysia 2009
hahhaa.. all my friends in indonesia talking about jason mraz will perform in java jazz,, yeah and i know i wouldnt make it to see him in java jazz because i still have a class, but foutunately my friends told me he will perform at KL this marc.. woohooooo,, i m so happy, so i told her to buy for me the ticket.. now i got the ticket.. JASON MRAZ live in malaysia 2009, 04/03/09,
at 8.00pm.. so i m going to watch jason mraz soon.. hahahhaha..
.xoxo.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
dira visiting and his match
dira had match in KL.. he and his team represented indonesia basketball. and this day we have a match with malaysia.. i m so proud because we got second place, and we win.. hahahaha
actually i m proud because my close friend in that team . and there's a guy which is my high school basketball couch, haha.. and he a know about me and my ex bf, actually my ex bf is dira's best friend. and he know me as Harsa's ex.hahhaa. so funny.. i met a cute guy, name jo. he is dira team mate.. haha
after that match dira ask me to accompany him to go shopping and he brought 2 shoes
it is so funny. me dira and two of his team mate (dika and mario) go to mid valley and the gardens, then as ayya's request i go eat at mamak ( ayya's fave resto) ahaha.. and they eat a lot.
after we finish eat nda ( ayya's brother) come to meet me. and we accompany them to go to klcc to take picture in front of twin tower,, in the end they come to my house.. oh yaa last thing they crazy about ramlee burger. dira visiting it is quiet short but it makes me happy.
it is nice to see dira after 4 month since i went back to indonesia..
thanks dira, dika and mario..
.xoxo.
the far far away kid.
as i said in picture before, i'd like to introduce my far away partner in this "gang" hahhaa.. i mean both of us life very far. and believe it or not since nugra went to japan last year, i can't say time i just can't good by that time. and everytime we went to indonesia, we never met, until this holiday finally after one year i can meet him.
and a lot of thing to tell.. i don't know when we can meet again.
but i hope i can transfer to aussie , and also him..
so we can meet eachother more often..
hehhe
.xoxo.
finally we meet all..
this is my 11 lovely best friend, and it is hard to make us all sit and talking together. because me staying in kuala lumpur, nugra staying at japan, and the rest in indonesia. but even thought they live in indonesia, it still hard to make us meet like this time.
its a happy moment when we can sit and talk about everything happen to us all year. and i dont know when we can meet and talk like this again. i hope soon we can do this again.
i miss u and i love you all.
.xoxo.
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