farewell guys, i will see you soon

three years it's a long journey for me.. New family

i found my second family there, learn to understand and share with new people 

this two people !!

1. Nabilla Andhini Yasmine : 

this is the first girl that i know in KL :) 

i know her first day i have to go to college alone.

she's like the opposite side of me, so she thought me a lot of things. 

we're become housemate after just only a "shadow housemate" at the other girls house :) . 

2 years of fun, two years of sadness, there's a cold war, we're different but somehow i know that she care :") . 

i miss you bills, thanks for the great lesson :") 

hey virgo, thanks for tell me that perfect isn't good enough :) 

2. Nidianti Tri Koeswardhana : 

sorry i have to put this picture because it's her signature look ( hahha ) . there's a lot of things that she teach me, she's like the long lost big sister, that i never have. eventhough i hurt her soo many times, but she never hate me ( sounds like a lover) . 

she's tough than what people know, ( gosh tears!!!) 

i told her to just close your ears and walk away, believe it or not she can do it ! ( proud teacher) 

thanks for your long speech that you give to me , and you never bored to tell be about "the same things" all over again. 

dear leo, thanks for rawring me and make me realize about life :) 

Btw Housemate, dont forget about our plan next year :") , i'll see you around 

Love 

Utik 

me and my wonderland

i'm not alice in wonderland
but i have my wonderland
people have their own wonderland
when we have dream and love to have imagination
we create our wonderland

my wonderland full of rainbow
with the blue sky
my house facing the beach
i have a garden full of elephant

elephant is my pet
and in my wonderland i'm wearing colorful tutu

in my wonderland everything feel safe
i always go to my wonderland everynight
to have my escape

complete the "happiness" puzzle ( 2)

even i said before that the puzzle complete,
it is not easy make the puzzle stay the same,
sometimes some shaking hands can make the puzzle tear apart
so we have to put it back together because it is screwed

after first shaking hands screwd we try to maintain
another kick come to screwed the puzzle more hard
some of the piece of my puzzle missing
try to find another old pieces but it will not working

try to put a new piece change the picture a bit
but still the same theme and view but different color
this time i put my puzzle in the box
safe and sound,
wait another puzzle come and make an amazing picture
all my puzzle will make a harmonies colour picture and memory :)

wait for the complete"happines" puzzle

Monday,18 july 2011 : safely landed in Jakarta, the best cousin waiting outside the airport holding his laptop and waving happily, hug me like it's been ages haven't see me :) . a warm welcoming

Tuesday, 19 July 2011 : send text to my best girl, another warm hug . suddenly the best people is around me for evening coffee share a lot of story like we never talk for ages .

even though i have all but something missing, 

wednesday, 20 july 2011 : another evening coffee in my favorite coffee shop with my best girl and her kakang thats the routine that's been missing last year. then another news coming the stubborn is coming back, tomorrow i have him..

my first three day been so great, home welcoming me very warm and nice :)

let will see all the puzzle will complete, what home will treat me

xoxo

excus me ?

excuse my language, excuse my behavior
excuse my mind, excuse me for my thought

people keep saying the word "excuse" for everything
we say politely to people
we try to be polite try to deal with people nicely
show our sweetness, show our love to people

but at some point if no one appriciate it
it would be turn around to be something sarcastic
the sweet things can change into something hurtful
the sweet things can change into something harsh

from this "excuse my language" become "excuse me, mind your own business!"

After The Rain

If I could bottled the smell of the wet land after the rain
I’d make it a perfume and send it to your house
If one in a million stars suddenly will hit satellite
I’ll pick some pieces, they’ll be on your way

In a far land across
You’re standing at the sea
Then the wind blows the scent
And that little star will there to guide me

If only I could find my way to the ocean
I’m already there with you
If somewhere down the line
We will never get to meet
I’ll always wait for you after the rain

seeing you with this song make me miss you and i miss the time we're together , 

another trip soon <3

the bed room

there's a time when you feel down in the bed room

no one inside your room 

your room is the safest place on this earth 

you can be who you are and no one will judge you 

when you down, your friends is only: 

the bolster that you can hug and release the sadness

the blanket that make you warm 

and the pillow that hold your tears 

sometimes make you feel relief

the bed room is the safest place on earth

the bed room is the best real relationship partner

the bed room is the best friend that you have 

 

 

trying to be what people want

when you have a social life and you're living in a relationship, your life will be all about people
first you're social life with the people around you, they will ask for a lot of stuff,
they're not complaining, maybe they have a good reason to ask you to change.
but sometimes it is just enough, you always listen to what they said , you try to change every single day
at the first they might be said it is for your own good, it is ! we all agree with it, but sometimes it is just enough!

the second one the state when you're in a relationship..
understand your partner, try to keep balance, balancing with their step
try to know your partner, try to keep up together .
try to learn what is relationship, try to change for the relationship
remember when you love a person that much you can do anything to make the relationship working
understanding, patience, balance.
actually for a person who's not a "relationship" person, it is tough.
but when the person like the "not relationship" person, when they fall, they fall too deep

try to be a person that can balancing everything it is not good enough
stop to try to be what people want, just show what you want to show
because sometimes it is just enough to be what people want

you never know what behind every people mind

people think that she's just innocent kids

people think she's just another sweet face 

people think she doesn't know anything 

people think that she's dumb 

people think she never listen a things

but.. after a while 

she show her real self 

she show how mean she can be 

she show how brave she is 

she show people the way she think 

she show the other side of her 

and people judge her again. 

but now she close her ears and walk away 

she said anything she should say. 

you never know what inside people mind.. 

think before you wake a LION

when girls think about the boys, mostly we put some negative think on it
guys, you never know what inside our mind...

please noted, you might think we're OK, but we are not
maybe for you it is important, but not for us.

we said Fine, it means we're not.
 you have to see every single word that we say, it could be mean something.

we're strong but when we falling we're weak.
but don't forget we can be as strong as a LION.

so guys think before you say it
think before you do any misbehave action

think before you hurt girls heart..

Think before you're calling a LION from her long sleep !

close your ear and walk away

people smiling at you, you smile back.

people introduce their name, you tell them your name 

they ask you to come to their life then you come. 

you walk with them, they still smiling to you.

but without you realize they bring a knife. 

you think you know them? 

no you are not, you just know them physically 

you never know what their up to

so for you this is the time to...

CLOSE YOUR EAR AND WALK AWAY ! 

because i close my ear and walk away :)

Another distance

since we know each other we have distance
distance since to be everywhere
i feel distance is my best friends

everything ruin because of distance
i ruin everything because of distance
i always stand in the distance

and now another distance
another distance in me
but i love distance
distance make me want you more

distance make me want to see you clearly
in distance i can see you clearly :)

IMY

Yeah,it is eventually fall in love :)

we never realize this will be happen
i never dream of this
but now it is happen.


you're just different,
from another feeling that i ever felt 

i never wish that i can fall for this again 
but you came and give this to me 
until the wall that i build is collapse

everything just change,
i just enjoy your presence 
i enjoy every single sweet text, that you send

i don't realize this is happen
i never dream of this 
but now, i'm just stand next to you

and i eventually falling for you




*the song that you gave make me right this :) 
it is actually the main idea of the song.

thank you twins :) 

tu es mon miroir

i know you, i know about you.

you know me and knows about me 

then come the time when i know us.

when i realize we're just the same.

i feel when i look at you, it is just a mirror with my reflection 

it's just amaze me. 

you can read my mind and i know yours

before i said it, you do it 

you are my mirror 

tu es mon miroir 

Happy New Year and Welcome to the journey of 2011

time goes fast without we know, i have spend my time back home for five month..
it's a new journey, the decision that i mad to stay here for a while,
i'm not running away from the reality but here i learn to face the reality.

if you think home treating me good, not at all.
suddenly home change into a bitch.
home teach me a lot of lesson.
actually it is good, so i turn into a little grown up kids

i have to face how mean home can be
how hard home can be..
thanks God i a good people is around me.

i have my long lost best friends.
the Capricorn..

by the way it is 2011 and we already say goodbye to 2010.

i will face what i will see later on

xoxo