the begining of my journey part 1

hellooo.. finally i am back, i promise i will write all the story of my journey.

like i said i have my own me time for 8,5 hour because of the plane was delayed :(

i enjoy my me time.. i think about a lot of things my future and the journey at jakarta.

when i enter the plane some one sit in my seat but thanks to the "handsome steward" i have my seat, my favorite seat near the window :) i can see the clouds and for me every clouds i see have a symbol.

there is a guy sit next to me and suddenly he was in the same high school as me, another accidently my senior :), he is a pilot and he is nice, we talk about so many stuff starting about psychology , how to drive plane, and how we love cloud shape. we have a lot of things in common.

and the other pilot which is his friends we love photography, and he see my new toy, and he said we do love camera and photography but he love the digital era not the develop era.

the same things common from three of us is we love clods and the shape. we talk about it until we arrived.

both of them help me until i found my mom.. yep i know i love to talk to random people, and i learn about life more from the stranger.

and i am home now and already have 3 journey more

blog later guys. oh ya . merry Christmas :)

hugs and kiss from jakarta

dear stranger, just take my heart.

You can take my heart for a walk on the beach

You can take my heart for a little trip
You can take my heart very close to your heart
You can take my heart forever if you like

If I take your heart, I will cherish it every day
If I take your heart, I will heal these old wounds
If I take your heart, it's to make it happy
If I take your heart, it's forever close to mine

I don't care, I don't care
If I'm again carried away
If you swear, if you swear
To give me your heart in return

take my heart -soko-

just take my heart, dear stranger.

7 hours me time

tomorrow i will be fly home alone

that time i might be thinking about a lot of things.

finally for 7 hours i have my me time

my me time starting from the airport until the airplane landing

just me,my thought, and my imagination

picnic with my self

picnic with my laptop also cute

and i think my assignment will accompany me

i always want to go picnic, whether with my friends or with my self.

blue sky with the green grasses.

i love it. i love the atmosphere

P.S : my camera will accompany me for sure

my side

this the me side. no one can disturb this side

at this side i can go to my own world,

the elephant eyes

the eyes of the other me

kare night

yesterday me choi and ellang is cooking kare for dinner.

and there're carrot and potato..

for information i don't like baked potato.

but i can finish it! (thanks choi and Ellang)

i eat there without my housmate.

so sad and without Dede the other neighbor

and when the cooking part Chef Choi in action!

funny experience, choi hate water and fire,

so he said it is his first time cooking that close to the fire.

and he did it very nice!

the food is nice

me and choi can fight the thing that we hate!

ellang is like Choi teacher..

thanks for the nice and Great Dinner neighbor.

My classmate

remember that i write about my motivation go to college, there is one guy name Michael.

he is German mix with Japanese, a rare combination. let me told about the first time we meet.

me and him it was in the same class last semester, and i was late to come to class.

when i came like always i am busy with my blackberry (and now it is broken)

yep, i am so busy, but i see there is an eye catching person there..

why eye catching?? every time Asian people look i

nto someone from Europe or american it's become some thing eye catching (he said as well) . i am looking for seat, and actually next to him it's empty but i am afraid so i just sit after his row.

on the second day, i meet an indonesian person and it is his friends and we start to talk and introduce each other name. starting from that point we become a Good friends

and today we studied together, acctually we have a lot of things common.

the way we think ( both of us is Libras) we love living

in harmony, we love everything balance.

we don't like ordinary things. we have our own thought. interesting actually it is our first time talk about our self. and it was Great!

by the way his full name is YOSUKE MICHAEL

(he keep the other picture)

this is the second pain relief

this things is become my painkiller.

in sight is the TOFFE NUT LATTE

me and my aunt is crazy about toffe nut latte.

when december come means toffe nut come to the town

yes, it is like SANTA

and yep i have a new toy that will follow my journey.

:)

hello DECEMBER

i just realize today is already December!

means 30 days before new year.

i hope December is better than november.

hello december and see you again november .

Christmas coming and new year waiting .

for me exam will be waving to me soon

and i am coming home

L word and the L behavior

i will make this as a parable,

now a day the "L" word come to me. i feel the "L" word.

and i realize after the "L" word come i have the "L" behavior.

i am starting to talk about the "L" thing.

talk about it over and over again.

my blog change into a "L" shit.

i hate to feel "L" again!! but i enjoy it as my spirit to go trough a rough day.

x0x0

don't leave just stand next to me

don't leave!

stand next to me!

i am in love with this picture

the expresion that we can't buy

my picture with niva, i dont know why icha got this picture, when me and niva just have a silly face, but i can see actually is not silly it is some expression with a fully of our heart, laughing surprise and enjoying our self without pressures, it is easy to get now a day, and because it is hard to find both of us not in pressure situation

and this kids expression, can you see this is very cute!

the picture see how honest this kids expression

it is like she said

"mom, i am full!! and this is the last spoon that will come to my mouth!!"

hahaha. and i think there is a veggie in the food so she hate it.

sitting, waiting. wishing

Now I was sitting waiting wishing

That you believed in superstitions

Then maybe you'd see the signs

But Lord knows that this world is cruel

And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool

Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?

Must I always be playing playing your fool?

I sing ya songs I dance a dance

I gave ya friends all a chance

Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you

And maybe you been through this before

But its my first time

So please ignore

The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I cant always be waiting waiting on you

I cant always be playing playing your fool

I keep playing your part

But its not my scene

Wont this plot not twist?

I've had enough mystery.

Keep building me up, then shooting me down

Well im already down

Just wait a minute

Just sitting waiting

Just wait a minute

Just sitting waiting

Well if I was in your position

Id put down all my ammunition

I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long

But Lord knows that I'm not you

And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel

Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?

Must I always be playing playing your fool?

No I cant always be waiting waiting on you

I cant always be playing playing your fool, foool

this is one of my favorite,

jack johnson

my milk toof and me as LARDEE

this milk toof name is lardee.

i saw this like my self, fat small and moving a lot.

i got this picture from http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com/

and when i read and see this blog i laugh very loud.

:0 another stuff that release my stress!

love it!

deep condolence for my brothers.

the sucks part when you living abroad or studying abroad is when your family have a big and important moment you can't be there to celebrate or to share and see or support.

like today, this morning at 10 am, i received a news from my mom, she said that my uncle (her cousin) is passed away at 5 am, first i am shocked. i just met him this Hari raya. and it is our first time after almost 3 years not seeing each other, he just say that i look older. he just said i grow into a beautiful lady.

i can said that he is on my list for the best uncle. i remember he always love to see me singing. there's one memory that i remember, when we go to Bandung i want to pup, and we still in the middle of the road that there is no public toilet. he make me calm, he just said can you sing for me, he help me to forget that i want to pup. he told me that please sing for me. it is one most funny moment and one moment that i always remember.

he always ask me to kiss him every time we meet and he always like to hug me everytime we meet. that hari raya is the last time i meet him. i never predict this will be happen, yeah it is a fate that God written down. but i just feel sad because who will be hug me and want to hear my story and love to hear me singing.

when i come back to jakarta i will never see him again, but this time i will never see him forever, i'll never see him again in every family reunion, in family wedding.

the saddest part is i can't see him for the last time.

i send my deep condolence for his family. for my brothers and my grand mother.

good bye ma'dang.. rest in peace and send my hugs and kiss for my grand mother.

and i send my last hug and kiss from here for you.

dear stranger,you coloring my day

after a black and white scene in my life

a stranger come and bring the color.

i don't want to him notice this.

but, yes stranger

yes you do.

stranger, you bring a lot of color in my life.

i feel like i found my magic crayon again

and you help me to coloring my day.

dear stranger, i like you, do you feel same?

-another stranger-

agree and disagree

when the first i saw this pic i feel like i agree with this!!
sometimes studying make us die slowly, make us stress.

but we ahve to see from the positive part that we enjoy it

we have to do this.

so make this thing become fun

i am paul mc cartney.

i took the beatles personality test..

and i am paul mc cartney.

this is the explanation

You are a true perfectionist. You are blithe and outgoing, gregarious, and irrepressibly cheerful. You are blue collar, and born to the music

my imaginary friends

i love it

this is my imaginary friends.

60 days of summer for me

i haven't watch this movie

but i know i will love it

short love story, it is like my story every single of my long holiday

when i see this picture i remember FELIX

he like john lennon very much

when i see this picture i remember him

another real life fairy tale

do you believe it will happen in the real life??

this kind of things??

for me i do believe.

i love fairy tale, but this one name it..

little red riding hood become fat.

a reality, in the story she holding a bread and fruit in her basket

but here because in real world we eat junk food see what happen..

princess Jasmine

princess Jasmine is fictional middle east princes, in the story she is a brave girl

she is bit arrogant and headstrong.

in reality middle is now in a war.

so you can see what will happen if princess Jasmine in the reality

Cinderella

of course you know cinderella, she is the motherless girl.

she live with her stepmother and two step sister.

in the fairy tale she is a kind hearted one

but if she come to the reality it will become stress.

and she will become heavy drinker.

belle

she is a beautiful fiction girl.

and her love can change the beast into a prince.

but if real, she will done plastic surgery.

snow white

in the fairy tale snow white is live happily ever after..

but if it is become real we can said she live in the disaster!

i do love fairy tale but i know about reality.

this happily ever after not that easy,

we can see the different in enchanted movie,

when fairy tale character come to the real world.

xoxo

i m so in love with Gabe Bondoc!

he is Filipino , can sing, play guitar, nice voice, handsome!

can you imagine this kind of guy! oh my...

if there's one like this in front of me i totally will fall for him.

the way he sing will make me faint..

i don't have much to say. this guy on you tube make my day.

after one rough day it is become so bright!

I m so in love with gabe bondoc!

xoxo

annie leibovitz

this grate american photographer take john and yoko

and she make romeo and juliet more dramatic

she make a fairy tale more beautiful

even this psycho picture become great

my new favorite photographer.

she take a lot of picture for vanity vair.

i just love her so much

THIS IS IT.

This is it, here I stand

I'm the light of the world, I feel grand

Got this love I can feel

And I know yes for sure it is real

And it feels as though I've seen your face a thousand times

And you said you really know me too yourself

And I know that you have got addicted with your eyes

But you say you gonna live it for yourself.

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn't my plan

I never thought that I would be your lover

C'mon baby, just understand

This is it, I can say,

I'm the light of the world, run away

We can feel, this is real

Every time I'min love that I feel

And I feel as though I've known you since 1, 000 years

And you tell me that you've seen my face before.

And you said to me you don't wnat me hanging round

Many times, wanna do it here before

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn't my plan

I never thought that I would be your lover

C'mon baby, just understand

This is it, I can feel

I'm the light of the world, this is real

Feel my song, we can say

And I tell you I feel that way

And I feel as though I've known you for a thousand years

And you said you want some of this yourself

And you said won't you go with me, on a while

And I know that it's really cool myself

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn't my plan

I never thought that I would be your lover

C'mon baby, just understand

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn't my plan

I never thought tha

t I would be your lover

C'mon baby, just understand

the last song that he made before he past away.

this is my imaginary world will be

if in my own imaginary world you can see this things happen

me as lady birds

if i live in my own imagination world i will be lady bug

happy wedding kak Gia.

because i can't be there for my cousin wedding day, so i will post this song MENIKAHIMU by Kahitna.

happy wedding my beloved cousin .

MENANTIMU, HINGGA SAAT

CINTAKU TEMUKAN DIRIMU

USAI SUDAH SAMPAI DISINI

BERDIRI MELABUHKAN ASMARA

MENIKAH DENGANKU MENEMPATKAN CINTA

MELINTASI PERJALANAN USIA

MENIKAH DENGANMU MENETAPKAN JIWA

BERTAHTAKAN KESETIAAN CINTA

SELAMANYA

kahitna.

good luck for your new chapter of life.

i send my pray, my kiss and hug from KL.

zoo-prising!

this picture taken by namita.

and this time is my birthday surprise.

thanks housemate, thanks neighbor, thanks all friends.

even i cried because of my panic attack, but i still live it.

oke2, why i cried??

first they cover my eyes with a scarf from DEKI till zoo negara KL.

when we arrived at the zoo they told me if i'm not follow their direction i will fall from the ravine.

i start more panic. and i smell a pup!!

but my house mate told me to shut up and don't said a bad word!!

because we're in batu cave. more scary, i feel i will got curse.

i cried already!

but when they open my eyes, all my friends there.

and there's an elephant in front of me!!
i love you all

the birthday card from one of my aunt

me love this

welcoming 20 !

actually yesterday was my birthday. and i turn into 20!!

such a big deal for me, because this start my adulthood life.

and all i can say is "starting my adulthood not that easy.

at least i settle for my career future.

it is not that things. suddenly my mom become very emotional.

she wrote in her face book page that, she remember when she become as a mom 20 years ago.

it's kinda touch me, she said it is a miracle that now she see me as a Woman not a girl.

then after that i receive a BBM from my aunt, she said the same thing.

she told me about when she go from her college just to saw me in hospital.

she said "kamu lucu pas lahir, pipinya bulet dan merah kaya tomat.

it make me feel like "i'm a lucky girl" because when i born all people come to see me.

than now i haven't show something that make them pro

ud at all.

this is the deal for 20 "i have to make something , to make them proud"

all the people that give me a birthday wishes is make me feel happy.

suddenly all my Hell Week become nice, because of this day..

i can said more than thank you.

but i think thank you is not enough.

i have to make a difference.

20 is new life beginning, a new life just start.

one again HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
and welcome to my new life call "adulthood"

xoxo

hey bulldog

Sheep dog standing in the rain

Bull grog doing it again

Some kind of happiness is

measured out in miles

What make you think you're

something special when you smile

Childlike no on understand

Jack knife in your sweaty hands

Some kind of innocence is

measured out in years

You don't know what it's like

to listen to you fears

You can talk to me

You can talk to me

You can talk to me

If you're lonely, you can talk to me

Big man walking in the park

Wigwam frightened of the dark

Some kind of solitude is

measured out in you

You think you know but you haven't got a clue

You can talk to me

You can talk to me

You can talk to me

If you're lonely, you can talk to me

Hey Bulldog

the beatles

i adore THE BEATLES

Well I'm getting happier all the time, which is very nice

-Ringo Starr-

In the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.

-Paul McCartney-

All the world is birthday cake, so take a piece, but not too much

-George Harrison-

You don't need anybody to tell you who you are or what you are. You are what you are!

-John Lennon-

i have the explanation of why i choose a different color each of their quote or name.

it is what i see from them.

yellow for Ringo Starr : i see him as a sweet, cheerful and the simple one

blue for Paul Mc Cartney: i see him as the cute, talented and gentle

purple for George Harrison : the calm and quite one.

red for John lennon : i see because he always have a new idea, his very active one, spirit one.

we love THE BEATLES

my father always give me a lot of old song starting from rolling stone, bee gees, so many more

but when he gave me this band, i think "they are cool",

the first song i heard from this band is "a hard days night"

then i think " they music very cool"

why i mention" we"

because me and my dad love this band so much

i do love COCO CHANEL

Guilt is perhaps the most painful companion of death.

indonesia cry again. God, do You angry ?

this Wednesday, 30 of September 2009.

earthquake happen in my home town "west Sumatra"

at 17.16pm Indonesian time.

how sad when i know, it is was happen in my home town.

i hope my family there doing fine

because i haven't heard about any information

because as i know my family all live in jakarta.

the scale is 7,6 ritcher.

almost 75 people died.

but i heard almost 1000 people died.

and from the news that i just seen a lot of parents still looking for their child

Indonesia cry again, it is a warn from GOD

or is God angry?

may the victim rest in peace.

pray for the best, Indonesia.

we're proud wearing batik. Batik day.

today is the day that UNESCO approve batik as ours.

so all of indonesian people celebrate that

every where people wearing batik

my mom said in jakarta all people wearing batik for today

here we also celebrate it

we wear batik

i am proud to be indonesian and i m proud to wear batik

we're proud wearing batik.

the first day of eid

finally i celebrate eid at jakarta with my family after my grand mother passed away last 2 years.

maybe there's a question "how you feel?" oke, this eid it's very different, not just because of there is no my grandma but it's also a lot of my grandfather sibling already passed away, so we just go to few house of my sibling,

the weirds thing also happen when i meet all of my sibling, before we still a KID but when i meet them last week they are so different.

we can start from

1) bang Yasser : he is much older that me i think about 9 years, and i havent meet him for almost 2 years maybe, then "ta da" when we meet feels so different!!! actually im speechless.

2) bang Vava : the close older brother, he's so care, hahah, when i came he's bit shock because he didn't think i m in jakarta.

both of them make me feel grow up, because maybe before he thinks i'm just a kid who like play with them but now change, hahhaa

this day make me feel i dont want going back to KL, feels home more warm!! feels i belong there, but i have to finish everything here, so i can go back and make them proud!!

this is the picture with our lovely grand mother, and it is another picture!!

HALLO KL again *after eid*

actually i just got back from indonesia again, hehhe.

a bit annoying going back for 10 days, but it is for eid

this time i have more and more story,

i think i have to write that different story in two or three more post.

because if i write in this post it will be different because in each trip i have a lot of interesting story. and my new cousin "lalita" so so cute.

in this blog i just have to said that i m back again to reality for real.

happy eid people * brasa banyak yg baca blog gw*

and welcome back to the reality muthi

this is lalita

i have a new life spirit.

i have a new life spirit!! not just a person but i make all i hate here become my new spirit!!!

changing a bad things into a good motivation.

how we start ya!!! hmmm.. oke

1) it is a person, his name is yosuke michael gassner. let me make this clear, he is cute but.. i feel i have a good friend in all my class!! hehhe.. first i think i like him, but it isnt that feeling now. i feel like he is my brother! *bohoong* hahaha.

2) the most i can't find my comfort zone it is become a good motivation to finish my study, or to transfer to adelaide.

3) the next is my father allows me to go transfer to adelaide!! FINALLY.

4) now i can make all the negative things, now i feel people love me.. it is hard to have a good friends but it is easy to have or make enemy.

5) i love all people around me!! my housemate, my neighbour, my college friends.

i learn to thankfull about everything that i have.

it is my problem (another shocking fact about librans)

PROBLEMS THAT MAY ARISE FOR YOU, AND THEIR SOLUTIONS

• Problem: Finding yourself frequently trapped in situations that have no depth and little value to you or the other person.

Solution: Try not to pretend feelings you do not have and find a way to back gracefully out of a superficial relationship; look before you leap.

• Problem: You find that you do not really like yourself and/or beating yourself up over not being able to please another.

Solution: If you learn how to please yourself without depriving others, then you will be able to please someone else.

• Problem: The situations that make you ill at ease is only mildly irritating to another.

Solution: Try to cultivate inner security through spiritual strength and awareness.

• Problem: Feeling like you are nothing: your actions being frustrating to others.

Solution: Developing your feelings of self worth by expressing the positive in your nature and not letting your elitist, class consciousness show.