.tea and cigarette.

this another boring night.
every one went back already.
i m alone at home.
just with a glass of hot tea. chat with my friends, and a cigarette.

feel empty, boring. suddenly just think want to write this.
but it turn like a piece of unimportant things.

so now my friend gone a replaced by a glass of tea and dunhill lights menthol.

i need them here!!

. it s a tea and cigarette for tonight.


.c ya.

counting the days go back to INDONESIA

like always be my trip every time i m going back. it will be a long trip for me.

my route : One utama ( bandar utama ) - Johor - chek point malysia - check point singapore - harbor front singapore - harbor bay batam - staying at batam for one week - hang nadim batam - soekarno Hatta. hahahhah its a long trip right!!!

but is interesting.. because no place will be great than our home!!!

i miss home. i need to going back to my home soon..

i miss home.
just counting the day, Tuesday i will be home!!!!!!

.xoxo.

zapatos es una niña mejor amigo

the title of my blog means that shoes is a girl best friend. yap its true!! because i m a "amante de los zapatos".. shoes always be with me averywhere i go (of course because i used it). i just buy two pair of shoes. actually i dont have any idea why i buy two.. hahhaha. shoes is a foot wear. we need shoes. shoes is a whitnes of what happen in our life without we realize that.
like because for me i need a mood to buy shoes, like i have more than three shoes with a diffrent story from different holiday or different study break..

las but not least i love shoe more that anything!!!

psychology student disorder

me and my lovely psychology text book!!!!



exam coming tomorrow and Wednesday .. i can't study anymore!!!! my brain is full already!!!! i m going to trow up. i need to go home soon!!! i m miss my old life!! i read in my book tells about psychology student disorder.. hmm.. and i just realize that disorder effect me. i m to deep to study that so i feel like i got that disorder, i told my mom already!! oh noo i m going to be nuts. i need holiday, a long holiday!!!! holiday please come early.

that's the book that make me crazy!!!!!

the sisterhood of the traveling pants 2 affect me!!!!

today because i m study to much, i give a break. and i watch the sisterhood of the traveling pants 2. oh God, i cried during the movie ( actually i always crying during movie) but here i feel different i miss y family, i miss my friend, and suddenly i miss my old life, i want my old life back!!! i want around my family and all friends.. i need my five best friend here,, i need them to staying with me, i need them now to be here. support me!!! i need My old life back!!!

ME = MY PARENT dominant side

my family!!!

because i will have intro to psych exam, so today i m studying about prenatal development.. then i just know, if the first child got all that dominant from the parent. hahaha.. so i just realize
everything in me now it is similar with my parents dominant. start from my nose, my upper nose it's like my mother and in the downside it is same like my father!!!!!!! ahahhahha,, i just realize that and it s funny, my fingers tooo,, my mother has a short finger and my father has a fat finger so my finger is fat and short like a baby carrot, and and my sister have my father resesive and the dominant side from my mother..

it is funny for me, because i just realize that, how come i never realize that!!!!!

but i love it!!!

lucky i m in love with my bestfriend

boy i hear you in my dream
i feel you whisper across the sea
i keep you with me in my heart
you make it easier when the life gets hard.
lucky i m in love
with my best friend
lucky to have been what i have been
lucky to becoming home again
lucky we're in love
in every way
lucky to have stayed
where we have stayed
lucky to be comming home someday

jason mraz

"people just can plan, God decide. because just God know the secret of life"

do you realize that?? PEOPLE JUST CAN CAN PLAN, GOD DECIDE. BECAUSE GOD KNOW THE SECRET OF LIFE.

because when we plan something God can change it, an d that's the answer. there a lot of things happen about that like today one of my best friend had that experience. today she want to delete about her ex, so she go to a place that nobody knows. then suddenly she meet her ex there, God,You have a lot of secret that beyond our mind, God make a surprise that we never know it will happen.
yeah i believe this quote now.

sometimes we have plan but God will decide what will happen next.

lastly i m happy for my friend, because she got the answer already, after everything she's been trough..

i hope this will end happily ever after..

congrats babe!! you got the answer now. no need to be sad any more

for my best friend who got the answer.

xoxo.

Fade away = My story.

I just wanna say hello to you
But you’re not lookin’ my way
Like you trying to act cool
I think I lost my mind
Back there and then
Oh how I let my feelings go

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…

Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away

You just wanna say hello to me
Now the table’s turned
I’m not lookin’ your way

Don’t get it wrong
Oh, it’s twisted up
Alright let’s make this story short

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…

Whao…
Why did it have to go down this way?
I’ll admit I feel you when you are near
Maybe baby we got it all wrong


-Olivia-

"RANDOM"

the theme of this month is RANDOM, everything are random. start from my life is random.. i had a something called "without relationship" with my first boyfriend who never meet me in 7 years. then i m have plan to transfer to aussie, and my friend live too random too.. what happen to life nowadays.

life's to random for me now!!!!!!
i need a break from this random world.. somebody help me out!!!!!!!!!!
last thing I'm in love with my best friend..never mention it but i tried to say "lucky i m in love with my best friend!

ingat lah hari inii!!!

ketika kesepian menyerang diriku
ga enak badan resah ga menentu
ku tahu satu cara sembuhkan diri ku
ingat teman2 teman ku.

this is 11 person that have a big influence in my life, although now we live in the different part of world ( me in malaysia, nugra in japan, and the rest in indonesia) we still communicate and share everything!!! i can't belief how i do live my life without them.

i wonder transfering to aussie

the reason :

1. they have APAC
2. the psychology industry is going stronger.
3. i m living with Angga
4. !!! (zaid also)

beside that i need to get out form my box. now i need my dad approve this decision that i wonder since i talk to angga. and since i heard my friend explain about this program in Australia.

and why i choose Adelaide , it is because i know the people there. i have a friend since i m elementary school. and also my future husband there. hahha (that's not true).

because long long time ago me and angga make a little plan, because before he want to be a doctor and i want to be a psychologist so, we imagine about our clinic! haha such a silly things !
but angga failed! and now he become a pilot, so hmm i m still wan t to keep this, reach my dream for my parents and for angga,the person that i make promise to make this dream come true!

and angga promise to take care everything! like about house i can share with him and his sister, we'r going to same university. actually i m still around him..

and the question is "why i write about him a lot??"

.elephant.licious.

"The elephant is a friend to man More than the dog, it's constant. And now indeed our turn has come to be the Friend of the elephant." From the song, Friends of the Elephant, composed by Paul Hippeau

Two people that help me so much here!!!!! around 1 year already!!!

nabila+nidii

this two person from i start my life here, they always with me!!!

everything happen to me they know all..

i don't know what happen if i don't have them...

save me from everything!!!!!

mentaly ill

this saturday night just staying at home because exam comming.
thanks God i have Nidiii..
my housemate gone all.
nidi left then..

so boring, just chat with my Malaysian friends Meor...

i need vacation and holiday!!!!

i m mentally ill already!!!!!

like what i learn about mentally ill!!!!!